[Ashkyrpt's Crew]

Well here i am again, In this white room, Alone sitting here in this chair.
I look back on the past only to greif over my loss. Why, Why reflect on the sadness in ones life, Why do we tend to think about the badf and not the good. I dwell on the past no matter how hard i try to let go. My life is filled with reminders of past lovers and other recent despairs. I am drowning in a world of hurt. But do i cry, do i complain or become enraged.

No...I Dont

I am calm in voice, almost emotionless. Dead to my surroundings and to myself. I have no hate left no anger within me. I have no reason to despair over a loss. No matter the pain, nor the hurt. I do not care. Yet inside i am torn, ripped in two crying weeping on the floor. My head upon this chair and cover in my own tears. For the feeling of no control, Helplessness.

I hurt...

I hurt with all the pain from past years though young and seemingly arrogant. I am wise. I know the meaning of love. And its evil twin lust. I fear i have once again ben decived. ben over looked by a higher power. This feeling, So blank and empty. I live in cold shallow regret. But still i hope for better, moving forward to live again. I am Reborn, I am a new. No matter the pain or hurt, Or the constant reminders of past despairs i fight.

I FIGHT!

I fight for my own being, For what is mine, For the woman i truely love, No matter the pain i shall have my own. No more regret no more secrets. I shall battle the hurt and heartbreak and march forth into a better time. I shall now only the future only what i wish to know.

Becuase i am My own



(I wrote this in five minutes spiting out my current emotions at the time, i did not proffread or fix anything. I just typed and shown the inner me at the moment. Feedback wanted)